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Despite midterms looming ahead, I refuse to get stressed. In the grand scheme of things, it's not that important and I know God is taking care of me, I just need to do what I wrote down in my agenda to do (even if it means lots of studying and papers) and he'll take care of the rest. So in leui of this attempt to be no stress Tash I am recounting all of my fondest thoughts to thank God and others, since it is that time of year :aww: I am thankful for: warm loving arms around me golden leaves falling in the breeze hands that wipe my tears piggy backs on crisp sunny days caring eyes that see beneath the surface runs by the river with the

I started a book called crazy love and it's pretty good so far, it's about how crazy it is that the creator of the universe is in love with us puny humans... and how we would be living our lives if we really believed that. I've been thinking about loving God with all my heart, mind, soul,and for me I do each of those things differently. With my body I try to do cardio twice a week and do yoga, with my mind I study hard in school, with my heart I build relationships with others, with my soul I sing worship songs and praise him, which are all good things, but I feel like there's something more. There has to be some way I can be so intwined with

hmph. I've been thinking lately. about life, and where I'm at. I've decided that 19 is a very awkward age. don't get me wrong here, I really do love being a young adult, and I myself am not at awkward person (for the most part). but I feel like I'm stuck, being too old for some things and too young for others. Caught between who I was and who I want to be. I'm not the crushing teenager and I'm not the commited wife. I'm not the angsty poet and I'm not the stable writer. Creating/finding myself is going to be a lifelong journey, which I think is so exciting. But I feel like I have this vision of me that is currently unattainable, so I don't kn